Reading for the day

I believe I have dug my own grave with a “controversial” topic that I wrote. Never had I seen such a long comment before. Oh my poor heart~

The cards are quite correct as I see many wands and two swords.

But with the cards, I do see a happy ending. fingers crossed

	The card not shown but at the center of the cross, represents the atmosphere surrounding the central issue. Ace of Cups: The seed of a new relationship or spiritual journey – perhaps as yet unseen. An opportunity for joy, contentment, fertility, or enlightenment. Coming to understand the emotional needs of those around you. May represent an unexpected message, a chance meeting, or the start of a friendship or romance. //an opportunity for me to discover just how tough I am. a roller coaster ride for my career
	The card visible at the center of the cross represents the obstacle that stands in your way – it may even be something that sounds good but is not actually to your benefit. Five of Wands (Strife): An intense struggle motivated purely by the love of competition. A state of seeming chaos driven by endless small disputes and complications. A hotly contested race, debate, game, or other challenge. A stressful situation that brings out the best in the participants. //quarrelsome people waving sticks around. chaos. BUT will bring out best in participant, says explanation
	The card at the top of the cross represents your goal, or the best you can achieve without a dramatic change of priorities. King of Wands: The essence of fire behaving as air, such as lightning: A great and daring leader who inspires others to rise to challenges alongside him. An artist who can take hold of an idea and make it a reality through bold action. One who is forceful, charismatic, and honest, leading by example, but unafraid to invest authority in others. A dashing and magnetic personality, carrying authority naturally, and striking at the world with swiftness and grace. //i need to be the daring leader that the card is. Authority is keyword
	The card at the bottom of the cross represents the foundation on which the situation is based. Nine of Swords (Cruelty): Debilitating mental anguish or ill health. Being dragged down by the dishonor of others. Participation in a shameful or regrettable act. Inescapable guilt, mistrust, and doubt. May indicate a death or other catastrophic loss. //Yup, first reaction when I saw the comments. “What have I done?”!
	The card at the left of the cross represents a passing influence or something to be released. Six of Wands (Victory): A sense of honor and satisfaction at the resolution of an important matter. Triumph after great struggle. Jubilation at the hearing of good news. The realization of hopes and desires. //Yeah! victory will be mine!
	The card at the right of the cross represents an approaching influence or something to be embraced. Queen of Pentacles: The essence of earth behaving as water, such as a hot spring: A warm and generous host, providing shelter and comfort for all who would seek it. A person steadfast, practical, and domestic, able to create opulence and stability in any setting. The qualities of maturity and sensibility, coupled with an innate appreciation for nature and the material world. //need this person to help
	The card at the base of the staff represents your role or attitude. The Emperor: Worldly authority and power. Social mastery and oratory. One who is intelligent, experienced, confident and reasonable. A patriarch or primary male influence. The motive force of politics and society. The ability to fulfill plans and use mental control over the emotions. //I need to be Emperor-like
	The card second from the bottom of the staff represents your environment and the people you are interacting with. Six of Cups (Pleasure): Opening your heart to the simple pleasures of life. Fond memories fuel the playful embrace of love and life. Experiencing the joy of youth and sexual innocence. Engaging in acts of gentle kindness. Harmony of natural forces without effort or strain. Meeting an old friend. //Innocence
	The card second from the top of the staff represents your hopes, fears, or an unexpected element that will come into play. Eight of Swords (Interference): Chagrin at the unforeseen consequences of prior decisions. Criticism, censure, and the imposition of external restrictions. Confusion leading to powerlessness. Inability to focus on the crux of a problem and free oneself from a difficult situation. Being hamstrung by a past failure or humiliation. //Yes, my fear of blindfolding myself and not going out of my little circle of swords. The action that I think is protecting me actually binds me
	The card at the top of the staff represents the ultimate outcome should you continue on this course. Ace of Wands: The seed of a new venture – perhaps as yet unseen. An opportunity to be met with boldness, vigor, and enthusiasm. The herald of birth, invention, or entrepreneurship. An innate and primal force released. May suggest a surge of vitality, creativity, or fertility that can set things in motion. //New opp! jia you!